[祈禱] Wish her good news

跟我感情很好的小學的友人傳來壞病情

是非常稀有的一種淋巴癌

她上個月才跟我說發現長了奇怪的小突起

前兩個禮拜確定是癌症

而且是很少見的一種

聽到當時我整個人像掉進冰水裡

怎麼又來了.....

去年冬天那場不知道是淚水多還是雨水多的寒冷葬禮到現在還深深印在我腦海裡

怎麼又這樣

高中同學的媽媽, 一位很可愛很開朗的阿姨,

也是在和癌症戰鬥著

我不喜歡這樣

I don't like it

it appears to me the whole world is getting cancer


she's totally healthy and not feeling any pain or symptom,

she even went mountain hiking yesterday

他們還沒查出來是幾期也不確定患部到多大,

如果已經跑到骨髓的話就只能等移植了

還好她說她現在很有信心

skype上聽起來也是笑嘻嘻的

她是那種很真的人, 不會假裝

跟她講完話後我感覺好很多

現在就等下禮拜的檢驗結果出來了

希望還沒跑到骨髓

but i'm still depress

why does it happen?

she's totally healthy and no sign of illness

how could it be???

What if the next one is me?

we never know that, do we?

she never thought this would happen to her either

just like how it happened to Andrew

now i can't even go visit her cuz she's at TW

she's almost finished her degree at U of Wisconsin and planing on going to grad school

how could it.......

but she's taking it positively,

and I'll do the same

I know she'll get cured and come visit me one day,

bring her German boyfriend

I will be healthy and happy and do things i want to and tell my loved ones I love them

Maybe i should start getting student loan and save my money for travel

I do wanna see the world and watch the icecap before it melts

生命真的很無常

大家真的要愛惜自己也愛身邊的人